A Cyanotype Saturday
I'm one of those sad people who can't move on from the past and can't share the present. I hoard the present moment to myself like it's a finite resource that I can't afford to give away. Of course, for a time this outlook helped me to keep living, safe and protected from any sort of meaningful connection or criticism that might shatter me, leaving me with even more pieces to try and fit back together. But in the now, it's a lonely worldview, and it's holding me back from growing as a person. Tonight, I thought about a new favorite song, Stop the Rain by Tablo and RM . The song is about healing, and although the subject matter is dark, I actually feel the most like listening to it on a sunny day when things are going okay, a reminder to myself that it's okay to keep going, to leave the past where it belongs. Today was a sunny day and I got off work early, so I took some time to make some cyanotypes that didn't turn out how I'd envisioned the...